I knew this town by heart. I was a daughter of this soil, a woman who had taught second grade at the elementary school for a decade. I knew every crack in the pavement, every hidden backyard garden. But today, peering through the glass, I felt the cold prickle of a farewell. It wasn’t theatrical or loud; it was a silent, serene detachment. What if this was the final viewing?
The surgeon, Dr. Louis Herrera, had been a man of terrifying honesty. He didn’t seek to frighten me, but he refused the comfort of empty platitudes. “The tumor is benign, Jessica,” he had said, his eyes meeting mine with a directness I respected. “But an operation is a physical trauma. Risks exist. Anesthesia complications, post-operative variables… we must be prepared.”
At that moment, I had wished, with a desperate, childish part of my soul, that he had lied just a little.
Curiously, when the weight of the diagnosis finally sank beneath my skin, my first thought hadn’t been of Evan Morris, my husband of eight years. I thought of my classroom. I thought of Ben, who had finally conquered his stutter and begun to read with a lilting fluency. I thought of Paige, whose shoelaces were perpetually untied and whose tongue was sharp enough to cut glass. I thought of little Dany, who had spent all of September weeping at the door and now raced into the room each morning like a conqueror.
