I braced a hand on the counter because my knees felt weak.
“You did WHAT?!”
“She’s 18, Maureen. She’s an adult. I got tired of her sitting around, eating our food, living off my paycheck.”
I screamed until my throat burned. I grabbed the plate right out from under his knife and threw it against the wall behind him. Ceramic sprayed across the floor.
He didn’t flinch.
“You did WHAT?!”
“Where did she GO?!”
“How would I know? She’s grown.”
“She’s my DAUGHTER!”
“And this,” my husband said, finally lifting his eyes to mine, “is my house. Try to remember that before you break anything else.”
***
I didn’t sleep that night. I sat on the edge of Sarah’s bed calling and calling, listening to the same voice tell me her mailbox was full.
“How would I know?”
I thought about leaving him. I really did.
Then I thought about the mortgage in his name, the checking account he’d opened “for both of us” that only he could really access. And my small paycheck barely covered groceries and wouldn’t cover a security deposit on a studio.
So I stayed. God help me, I stayed.
But I didn’t remain passive.
I thought about leaving him.