“No.”
She looked at me.
“Mom, he would have destroyed you too.”
My stomach tightened.
“What does that mean?”
Sarah looked toward the hallway.
Then said,
“Can we go somewhere else?”
“Why?”
“I don’t want him walking in.”
I checked the time.
Kevin usually came home around six.
It was 1:20.
“We have hours.”
Sarah shook her head.
“He comes home early sometimes.”
I grabbed my bag.
Then looked at the baby.
“Where can we go?”
She hesitated.
“Your office?”
“No.”
Too public.
Then I thought of a coworker.
Janice.
She managed a small bed-and-breakfast owned by her sister.
I called.
Asked whether there was a private room.
She said yes.
No questions.
Twenty-five minutes later, Sarah and I sat inside a small upstairs suite overlooking a garden.
The baby slept in a portable carrier.
I stared at him.
Sarah noticed.
“His name is Noah.”
I smiled weakly.
“He’s beautiful.”
She looked down.
Then whispered,
“He isn’t mine.”
The words hit strangely.
“What?”
She looked at me.
“He’s my brother.”
Everything stopped.
I stared.
“No.”
Sarah nodded.
“Noah is Kevin’s son.”
For several seconds, I could not understand language.
“What?”
“Dad’s son.”
I laughed.
Not humor.
Shock.
“That’s impossible.”
Sarah’s eyes hardened.