AFTER 31 YEARS OF MARRIAGE, MY HUSBAND STARTED SLIPPING OUT OF BED AT 2 A.M. — THEN I HEARD HIM WHISPER “DADDY LOVES YOU TOO,” THOUGH OUR CHILDREN HAD MOVED OUT YEARS AGO.

Hand-carved. Old. The kind of thing you’d keep something precious in.

“It’s her box,” Greg said. “It’s Grace’s box.”

And the world tilted, because I knew that name, even though we had not said it out loud in almost thirty years.

Grace.

Our first baby.

The one we lost.

Before Michael. Before Emma. A daughter, born too soon, who lived for two days in a hospital and then didn’t, thirty years ago, when we were young and shattered and had no idea how to hold a grief that size.

We had never talked about her. Not really. We’d folded her away, the way people did back then, the way we were told was healthy — “you’re young, you’ll have more” — and we’d gone on and had Michael and Emma and a whole life, and we had never once, in thirty years, said her name at the dinner table.

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